The Child Revisited
Today I got a glimpse of me.
The me that I swore could not return.
I saw the part of myself that I said was dead and buried,
Killed off by the destruction that was my life.
And when I saw me, I knew who I was.
I recognized the part of me that has always been my strength.
Like a fool, I closed my life to that part of myself for many wasted years.
I said to let that person exist was to be weak
Because that part of me hurts and is angry.
For so long, I have fought against any reminders of that me.
But somehow, today, when I wasn’t looking, I found me.
I looked in my eyes and saw the hurt.
I looked in my heart and felt the pain.
I looked in my head and regained the memories.
Suddenly, I was back to a place I had never really left.
And in that glimpse of me, I knew I was going to be okay.
So, I said so long to the child I never really was, and never will be.
I touched the face of my strength when I let the hurt wash over me.
And I said hello to the child who will always be a part of me, who always was.
Fairy tale dreams don’t come true.
They can’t. With real life comes real hurt.
We build walls and we tear them down.
We deny everything, we doubt everything, we are no longer innocent —
But SOMEWHERE inside of us still LIVES THE CHILD.
Also published here.